As we prepare to erect our new home, we are engaged in the usual spring time clean up and prep of the house we have grown to know and love over the past 30 years. Inanimate objects are not supposed to have personality or feelings but it is hard to imagine that our house does not 'feel' this transition.
As we worked around the yard yesterday in the beautiful springtime weather, Karen and I exchanged many "do you remember" moments. From her playing basketball with our very tall son and winning on occasion by using her elbows, to raking leaves from around the pool to cleaning out the gardens and seeing the buds already peaking out, and conversing with a long time friend and neighbor as he tapped our maple trees - they all had history and memories.
We try to move toward something in our lives and not 'away' from things. For us it allows for a more positive and directed method of living a mindful life. We have caught ourselves in moments of sweet nostalgia wondering about all the history we are leaving behind. We know intellectually it is the right decision and that this house needs kids and families. Emotionally we are not always as sure. The tug of war will continue until we create a home with laughter with family and friends some months distant. Feeling a bit unsettled, we float between the two.
Matt
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